September 22, 2005 @7:04 pm
In memory of Jingyi…~~~~~~~~~~~
She sat at her desk, staring at her laptop. The radio was blaring behind her, the angst-filled words screaming through the still of the night. Clothes were strewn all over her bed and floor, as though a massive fitting session had just taken place.
“June, turn the volume down. It’s almost midnight. You don’t want the neighbours calling the police do you?”
She sighed, leaned back and fiddled with the knob. June was not a very attractive girl, but neither was she unattractive. Yes, her eyes were small, but she had a natural ability to make them dance with life when she smiled. Her chin was round, but in a way that enhanced her bubbly (though cynical) character. Such was the irony about her.
Yet now, her eyes emitted this weary charm. They no longer were bright and sparkly. Clouds rolled over them. Her outgrown pixie haircut and amber highlights spoke volumes about her once feisty nature that seemed to have disappeared suddenly. Perhaps it was the junior college exams which drained her. No one knew, because she told no one.
June’s laptop toolbar flashed orange.
aichi_gurl: Hey June
juniper: Hi
aichi_gurl: You know tomorrow’s outing? Yah… I can’t make it. So sorry…
juniper: Oh. Why? I thought we agreed on this for weeks already!
aichi_gurl: so sorry… you know how it is with projects and all. They’re piling up. I’ve got a presentation next week and my group mates want to meet tomorrow.
juniper: Ok. Perhaps the next time we can meet up with Angela and the rest.
aichi_gurl: Yup!
juniper: Oh, have you seen Scarlet lately? Her new hairdo is so ugly…
aichi_gurl; Er… no. She’s in your school remember? I don’t even see any of our classmates anymore! Ok, perhaps except the rat coz he's same fac as me.
juniper: It’s really ugly. And I heard that she and Joi had a falling out. Big quarrel!
aichi_gurl: They did?
juniper: Yup. My friends were telling me about it.
aichi_gurl: Icic… Hey girl, you know what, I’ve got to go. Got an early class tomorrow.
juniper: Ok. I think I can get free tickets to Jay Chou’s concert next month.
aichi_gurl: Really? I think you’d really enjoy it! You’ve been his fan for eons!
juniper: So you’re going right?
aichi_gurl: For?
juniper: Ok I’ll count you in for the concert.
aichi_gurl: Wait a min… when is it? You know I don’t appreciate all these songs… Get Lydin to come along! I think she’ll enjoy it too. She’s another fan just like you.
juniper: Didn’t you say you have to go?
aichi_gurl: Yah, but you brought up Jay Chou’s concert…
juniper: Nights! Sweet dreams! Don’t be late for class ok?
aichi_gurl: Nights girl!
June leaned back in her chair. She thought of the shouting match she had with Keith. It was so long ago, but it felt like yesterday. She remembered all the words they used. Heated words that should never have been said. She also remembered how she felt at the end of the incident. Sad. Dejected. Rejected. Since then, she had never liked anyone, nor felt loved.
June’s thoughts swirled back to college, when she would always eat with the girls during recess. And how they liked to talk about themselves. She would walk away after a while, because she felt that no one was listening to her. Even in the mornings, her study buddies were just there studying with her. They were close, but she thought that they had told Eddie that she liked him. She fell out with them after that. When she realized they said nothing to Eddie or the other guys or girls for that matter, it was two years later. June tried to patch things up, but the damage was done already. They had grown further from her. How she missed all those times studying at Bishan community centre.
Thoughts from her past life overwhelmed her. She changed her MSN nick to “Calling it quits”. June spiraled into the depths again, thinking that everyone hated her and that no one liked her enough to be her friend at all.
Just then, the radio started playing a song she loved.
I believe I can flyI believe I can touch the skyI think about it every night and daySpread my wings and fly awayI believe I can soarI see me running through that open doorI believe I can fly
I believe I can flyI believe I can flyThe urge to soar, to touch the sky took hold of her. She knew that the song sang of going on, of spreading wings to achieve some miracles.
Perhaps she could be free. To fly, to soar, to be free of all worries.
A gust of wind blew and caressed her face. June froze. Then she turned and looked at the window. She walked over, to fly, to soar, to be free.
September 09, 2005 @10:51 pm
by Tish Hinojosa
Wonderfully dreamy song...Here’s a song for the journey as we draw near the line
Though our heart bears a tear as we wave our goodbye
May the clouds pass before you, may the stars kiss your eyes
Rolli-o, rolli-ey, rolli-aye
There are days made for wonder and laughter and wine
May your dreams take you places, through river wind
If we don’t count our blessings, we’re wasting our time
Rolli-o, rolli-ey, rolli-aye
Heaven knows where road falls before me
May the angels call those left behind
When I think of the treasures and pleasures we find
There are many and many were mine.
If the road makes you weary and you can’t face the night
I will give you my shoulder for the weight on your mind
If we don’t count our blessings, we’re wasting our time
Rolli-o, rolli-ey, rolli-aye
Heaven knows where road falls before me
May the angels call those left behind
When I think of the treasures and pleasures we find
There are many and many were mine.
Heaven knows where road falls before me
May the angels call those left behind
When I think of the treasures and pleasures we find
There are many and many were mine.